The Ebb And Flow Of Intimacy
Jesus only spoke the words of the Father. So, whenever he spoke, and wherever itās written down, we have the recorded words of the Father. Through intimacy with the Father, we are able to enter into the life of Christ and do the works of Christ. He has called us to do his Ā works ā itās all a part of the relationship he wants with us. āFor we are Godās workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do ā (Ephesians 2:8-10).
Because you can come to God any time, it is possible to continually ask him to show you the good works that he has prepared ahead for you to walk in. In asking for Godās guidance in what to pray for, Iāve experienced asking for things beyond my ability to expect to happen. Ā
Thereās an ebb and flow in all relationships. There are times when Iām much more intimate with the Father, and times when Iām much less intimate with him. There are times when I feel like he loves me, and there are other times when everything in me denies that. Relationship with God is like a relationship with a person ā it must be maintained and nurtured. Itās like a good garden ā itās got to be worked at if you want to keep it nice. If you ignore your relationship, it will cool off . If you work at it, itāll warm up. And so it is in a relationship with God.
Even though we often fall way short of representing Christ to the world in a positive way, that still doesnāt change our relationship with God. It may change our enjoyment of the relationship, but it doesnāt change the relationship from the Fatherās point of view.
Itās hard to feel intimate with God when I feel unworthy. The devil knows this and āencouragesā me to think about all my limitations. Just as Iām starting to pray, the devil will say, āYouāre a sinner.ā Hard to argue with that one. More often than not, though, I make the mistake of listening further. āRemember what you did yesterday? Remember the thoughts you had? The things you said? What right do you have to talk to a holy God?ā Heās got a point, I say to myself, I have sinned. And because of my sin, I really donāt have any basis for approaching God. Before I know it, my prayer is snuffed out, because I listen to the deception of the enemy.
The way out of that lie and back to intimacy with God is simple ā be honest. Intimacy in prayer begins with honesty. Call sin by its name; donāt sugar-coat it with psychological labels or cover it with justifications. Donāt let the devil steal your prayer life away by telling you half-truths. Name your sin, confess it, ask forgiveness for it, and allow āthe blood of Jesus to purify [you] from all sinā (paraphrase of 1 John 1:9).
John Wimber, Prayer: Intimate Communication (Anaheim: Vineyard Ministries International, 1997), 5-6.